ANA'S LlVES
Know what gets me most about my dad?
The bastard bought his boat back.
The Linda.
He's getting it ready to sail solo to New York.
Ana.
I have news about your father.
-He's getting evicted. -From the cave?
Yes.
Who told you?
Friends of yours. Valencians.
The San Juans.
Your father is living with them.
I'm going. My dad can't live out of his cave.
He'll get used to it, you'll see. Living alone in a cave is no fun.
That's why he didn't want me to visit.
He's fighting with some politician and he didn't want me to worry.
Ana, there's no time to lose.
Your father needs you as soon as possible.
I know, he'll never get in a car, not even yours.
Let's go.
Ana...
Your father is ill.
Isn't your local festival this time of year?
He didn't want you to see him
until he felt better.
But he has cancer, Ana.
And now he knows he's dying.
Because I left.
-Don't say that. -Fine, I won't say it.
But I'll always think it.
He wants to dance with you, like when you were little.
Hold me tight, Maria.
Hold me tight.
Tonight's the coldest night,
and I can't sleep.
Hold me tight, Maria.
Hold me tight.
I'm scared
and I have nowhere to go.
Tomorrow when you wake
I'll be far away.
It's nothing to worry about,
I've been through worse.
In case I never see you again,
forget I made you suffer.
If I disappear I don't want
anyone to remember who I was.
Hold me tight, Maria.
Hold me tight.
Tonight's the coldest night
and I can't sleep.
Hold me tight, Anita.
Hold me tight.
I'm scared
and I have nowhere to go.
You've made me the happiest man
in the whole world.
Hold me tight.
I'll be back for you some day,
we'll run away together.
Hold me tight, Maria.
Hold me tight.
I'm scared
and I have nowhere to go.
I'm scared
and I have nowhere to go.
I'm alone and I'm happy, damn it!
Free!
I'm free!
Linda!
Linda, is that you?
Trying to punish me?
Well, you've succeeded.
Ismael, you don't know me.
I'm Ana.
What else are you?
Well, I'm your stowaway.
We'll have to make do.
But I can help you.
I don't want a fucking stowaway!
Sorry, it was me.
I grabbed the rope when I came out.
This is my boat.
- You snuck inside me. -I know.
I heard you were going to New York and...
Linda!
I'm a friend of Linda's!
Dear Cave Monster,
Here I am, in the Atlantic.
The souls of the dead don't go anywhere, do they?
All they can do is fly away to enter the living.
I don't want to fly away.
My only wish is to stay with you.
You're a friend of Linda's?
You said that in the water.
Is that why you came back for me?
No.
Want to know what your daughter thinks of you?
Don't believe all you hear about me.
I was living with her.
What time is it there?
I'm only interested in here and now.
Me, too.
From now on.
Hold on!
Don't let go!
I'd never spent so much time with a man before.
A man who isn't my father.
Tomorrow we arrive at the Port of Manhattan.
I want to dock in New York a few months.
New York, new life.
Then I'll follow the coast south.
Take my time. To Brazil.
I'll rent out the boat for money. With a crew.
Stay with me and I'll teach you to sail.
I have no idea what I want to do.
Play it by ear.
Sorry I'm not your Prince Charming.
Well, almost.
You're always close.
How did you find me?
Linda's father.
I was just with him on his boat.
Will you continue the voyage?
- Why are you here? -I'm sorry, Ana.
I absolutely had to see you.
We've done a lot of research.
You have?
For the last session,
-to reach the origin. - What's the point?
Look where I am now.
This is New York.
The most open city in the world.
Far away from your life,
right? But the funny thing is,
you've never been closer to yourself than you are right now.
Running away brought you back to your beginning.
How will I die this time?
Ana, look at me.
I couldn't wait to see you.
You're so dear to me.
I'll see him again, won't l?
We've entered the lndian reservation.
Look, Beast.
It's a cave.
I was anxious to see you again, Ana.
You broke my heart when you left without saying goodbye...
I understood,
but I also felt guilty.
Why are you here now?
To help you understand, if you let me.
-I have to go back even further? - Yes.
2000 years.
What's wrong?
It hurts.
Then we'll go outside. You must feel
comfortable above all else.
Something happened to you here and it's still near the surface.
She realized as well.
What happened?
We're not exactly sure.
That's why I've brought you here. Come.
Mother, Mother, Mother...
of Good Men!
Of Good Men!
She wants you to pick it up.
Trust her, Ana.
There's nothing mystical about me.
Come on, Ana. We're on your side.
Ana, do not be afraid.
We're together again.
Now say my name, you know me. Say it.
Osdad Ciaca.
That was your name.
I got it right the first time.
To your people, the Goddess of Life.
How old was l when I was exterminated?
22.
How scary.
I'm still 21.
I am alive, inside of you.
Ten,
nine,
eight,
seven,
six,
five...
We're preparing a surprise for you
from Madrid.
Hi, Ana.
Well, first of all,
I miss you a lot, there's no doubt about that.
What else...?
Things have changed around here. My mother sleeps
in your bed now.
She said to thank you.
She knows you're with my dad,
on his boat,
the Linda.
But anyway,
she says she's much better off without him,
which she didn't know, so good for her.
As for me,
you'll laugh but...
I'm back with Lucas,
so...
it's back to being a goddess.
Shared, of course,
but I'm used to the idea. As for you,
follow the wind.
-They say "a following wind." - Whatever.
That's it.
Ride it.
Ride the wind,
my dear friend.
My dearest friend...
My bird friend.
Osdad Ciaca.
Stop it, please.
Ana,
it was the man you loved who dethroned you.
He killed the goddess and your people fell into a war
among brothers.
Show her the ending.
He's dressed up as a bird.
His brothers will be angry.
Dressed like that, I won't go with you.
Your pride sickens me.
Put down that hatchet right now!
Don't be a savage!
Strike me again...
and you'll lose me forever.
Ana,
now, dying, is when she glows,
when she achieves wisdom.
And she speaks to you.
You have to listen to her.
I'm scared.
Then be brave.
But I'm not.
Ana,
down deep you are brave, the bravest of all.
Your consciousness of humanity is developed, but through the feminine,
which is the life instinct,
not the death instinct.
You have to open yourself up and explore it.
I don't have to do anything.
Whatever you say, princess.
I'm free.
And I never liked mothers.
The tape is yours. It's up to you.
You must have a purpose in life.
You have to find it.
I have no purpose, period.
Anglo, hypnotize me for the rest of the trip, please.
Ten,
nine, eight,
seven, six,
five,
four, three,
two, one, zero.
You're going to relax
because you've had a very rough day.
Empty your mind.
I understand you, my love.
I understand you.
I open in two hours.
And you're way too late.
But I can make you a crepe.
What flavor?
Sugar.
How did you get here?
Justine.
She found me and told me where you were.
-ls this yours? -No.
It's a friend's.
How are things?
Fine, I'm trying to live my life.
If they let me live this one.
This is the present. You're stepping on it, Said.
No. Stay where you were.
Please.
This place is ideal for me.
Yes.
It seems made for me.
What about you? How was Guantanamo?
Guantanamo?
For all I knew, since you left without saying a word...
Ana,
I've come to ask your forgiveness.
Ana,
after your attack,
which we all saw,
I had another, which nobody saw.
And I saw why I couldn't help you, how I would hurt you.
You spoke to me in Arabic. What did you say?
How did I answer?
That night you realized it's not over
when biology runs out.
Our souls have another biological sense.
You said that there's nothing
in the end. It's the opposite.
We accumulate.
Death fills, not empties.
Let's go for a walk.
So how did it end up?
Did you make biology last longer?
No.
Do you think if we didn't die we'd be capable of loving passionately?
I don't want to live forever.
I just want to live with you.
That's my wish.
And that's my window.
Don't worry, it's all right.
I'm sorry.
Is there another woman?
Forgive me,
I shouldn't ask that.
What matters is we found each other.
Let's start a life together right now.
Where should we go?
To your desert?
Okay. "May God send us to Hamada."
Hamada.
Anyway,
even if we die again together,
devoured by birds...
You know what happened, don't you?
What I'm saying is, I'm going with you.
Anywhere you want.
Come on, say yes.
It'll be the happiest day of my life.
Ana,
I wasn't Yasir,
the Saharan you were in love with.
Why not? How do you know?
I'm Said, his son.
And also the son of Saida.
My parents were prisoners in a Moroccan camp.
A soldier took your son away.
My mother was a well-known Berber.
She came from way back
and possessed energy from other wise women,
Amazigh women
that came before her.
That's why the Moroccans let the birds eat her alive.
They thought her soul would be released
into the air.
The only thing of hers returned to my people
was this ring.
So I was your mother.
Your grizzly beast of a mother.
Just as well you weren't with us.
I saw him.
It's him, I know it is.
Who?
The big shot eating in the private room.
It's one of those fuckers who made up
the fucking war in lraq
that killed our little Paco.
We're here, Ana. Don't be afraid.
We'll go together, all together.
We're all behind you.
Italian?
Italian-American.
Spain.
Yeah, sweetie. We know it's all the same to you.
I'll be right back.
Even if you kill me 2000 times...
I shall be born again.
I will engender an army of children
who will become... Good Men.
TO MY SlSTER ANA WHO LEFT
TO MY DAUGHTER ANA WHO CAME
Ana's paintings were painted by Ana Medem between 1989 and 2001.
The adaptations are by Sofia Medem.